Let me be me and you be you.

So my 21st birthday was yesterday.  Thank you everyone so much for the wonderful birthday wishes!  It meant a lot to me.  So next week the actual summer training schedule for skating starts.  The schedule is super weird now.  I can't even fathom how I am going to feel when I get to the rink next week.  I usually can't walk the first week of summer training, because I am so sore.  Also, we usually have to be at the rink from around 6:20 am to 2 pm.  However...it's worth it.  Maybe I'm crazy, but I'm so ready for this season...well..I will be! ;)  So, besides summer training and birthday festivities; I'm on summer vacation from school!  I made dean's list for the first time! I was so excited about that.  I know, it's been a long time since I last blogged, but life is going pretty well.  I can't complain.   I've had my ups and downs the last month.  I found ways to break through the rough patches though.  Just..for the records..I'm not complaining.  I am so thankful for the life I have and the people in it.  So I've been running a lot.  It's so calming.  It just clears my mind and I can just take in what is around me.  It always feels like I'm going somewhere, and I love it.  I actually ran a half marathon with my brother a few weeks ago.  We finished in the top pack, and it was absolutely amazing.  I couldn't walk for a few days after, literally.  If a wheelchair was readily available I probably would have used it. However, it was so worth it.  It was a run to raise money for the fight against cancer.  Random people on the streets cheered on the runners, and people cried.  Oh my it was an great experience.  The people who handed out the medals were all cancer survivors.  At the finish line I just went and sat on a curb, because I wanted to die.  This little girl ran up to me and gave me a medal and a hug.  I can't even describe what I felt, but that was a rush...even after 13.1 miles.  So I also did a 5 mile run around campus with the delaware running company.  So I walk in and everyone is ripped...I'm the only girl...and they are all talking about their marathons and finishing first in their age group.  I was like.."I'm a figure skater". haha So I thoughttt it'd be a piece of cake..5 miles isn't bad.  Holy hell....they sprinted the whole thing.  They wouldn't leave me behind, because I didn't know the trail..so I was like trying so hard to sprint with them...like wanting to throw up..it was so hot...the whole time I was thinking that I should have never of done this.  I should have known they were hardcore when we left the running company and they all stripped their shirts and their muscles were like twitching.  As we ran by a funeral on Park Place, I almost turned to the ultra-ripped guy sprinting next to me like..."Hey guysss, this is my stop". Needless to say...after all that...I felt great after that run.  I think I'll go again this week.  Oh! and next Friday I'm seeing Dispatch at Terminal 5! I am soooo excited.  I love them, and I love the city. It's going to be a great time.  Ok, this blog is quickly getting too long, so I'll leave it at this.   I got amazing presents for my birthday from my friends, I love them all and they were all perfect for me.  One was a simple journal...and I'm in love.  I write all the time.  I've been told this, but what makes a journal so amazing is that it's open to anything.  Everything you write in a journal is completely you, free from influence or judgements.  It's just full of empty pages, waiting for your stories.  A journal is needy, waiting for the rest of your life; every memory always yours.  The simplest things can be so perfect.  :) I'll write again soon!