Nightmares

You would think I would have nightmares about skating, but never.  Well rarely. The only nightmares about skating are where I forget how to skate when I am in front of people.  Which I would say is more of a ridiculous dream.  My nightmares consist of one of two topics, always....tornadoes and love.   I have an irrational fear of tornados.  They are always chasing me or someone important to me, and I always wake up panicked.  The only thing I get out of those dreams is that I will never be a tornado chaser.
Love on the other hand; I guess you could say that is an irrational fear as well.  I know I'm only 20, but I've had one major heartbreak in my life.  I guess you could say I was too young to know what love was, but I solely believed I loved.  All I can say is without trust, love can not work.  I still have nightmares about that situation, and I still wake up in tears every time.  Stupid? yes, very. Can I control it? No.  Some things in life are out of my control.  I have to let it happen, and make the best out of the cards I've been dealt.  The only difference between now and then, is my emotional recovery time.  My stamina is a-maze-ing :) haha.  I always dread going back to sleep, but I have to skate in four hours.  So I just need to slap myself out of it, and tell myself some important things.  Every day is a new beginning and life moves on.   Sweet dreams.

"Love all, trust a few, do wrong to no one"~William Shakespeare